Anxiety and Panic Attacks

So for the past few years, 3 of em, i’ve been experiencing anxiety issues, which have prevented me from schooling or jobs….i leave my house to go to the store, or things like that, but every time i have to go somewhere, i have this extreme fear/anxiety about feeling sick while i’m out. It gets to the point that i’m very nauseated before i even touch the doorknob to leave. some of my friends even make fun of my signiture quote “I don’t feel good”. every time i’m invited anywhere i can’t go, because “I know i’ll feel sick, and won’t be able to be at home at the very second i need to be”

i occasionally get panic attacks, and am semi-depressed in general, the depression part i feel comes from….well everything. i see life being kind of….lol i want to say not fair but…i’ll put it this way, we are born, have fun as a kid, then have to work our asses off just to pay bills and aquire a bunch of meaningless things. but…then what? nothing.

I have a fear of people…not really a social anxiety kind of problem, but more like a “i live in the ghetto, and i feel like i’ll get robbed if i walk down the street” ….everyone i’ve met here thep ast 3 years has been a trashy theif. thats just the only kind of people around here. not to mention its Seattle, and its always raining and gloomy.

Basically, this problem doesn’t allow me to be out of the house for long, and i just get this extreme nausea that can stop me in my tracks, and i’ll just sit there for a moment trying to recover and be able to swallow without gagging. that makes driving VERY hard sometimes, when a panic attack hits.

i took citalopram for a few months, but it didnt seem to be working (first 10mg, then 20) and i heard a normal dosage was 40, so i wasn’t takign enough, but i decided that medicine wasn’t helping at all. Is there anything that could help? Does anyone else have this issue where they get a ton of nausea and just want to throw up every time they even ‘think’ about leaving their house? its ruining my life and i need a cure

to make it worse, my mother is always working(lot of 16 hour shifts), and sister is always out, so i’m home alone basically talking to myself and going incredibly insane. i’d LOVE a job, i’m in dire need of money…but this problem makes that a joke. just impossible.

any ideas about how to rid yourself of depression/anxiety? i found some motion sickness pills that temporarily remove my nausea, but i don’t want to become mentally dependant on them (knowing i’ll have to have them before i go out, and if i don’t then i freak out because i “know” i’m going to feel sick soon enough., i just psych myself out and have no control over it.

help?
oh, i also have a “history of substance abuse”, because i liked to have fun…drugs alc etc, now i don’t do any of it, but it definately makes it hard to get the docs to perscribe things to you with that history….
Well our family doesnt have much money (for therapy etc) so i went to a therapist at the free clinic for a while, but i swear i felt liek i was wasting both of our time. all i was doing was telling her about my past etc, and it was frustrating because i wanted to yell at her that this was going nowhere and was pointless…but maybe she just wasn’t a good one >.< i can go out a bit....to the store, longest i've been out lately was about 3-4 hours at a store, by the end i was having hot flashes, sweating, and was pretty fed up with standing and walkign around.

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